Why the site? Why now?
It is against every single one of the fibbers in my being to express myself other than thru art or fiction. And as I wrote those very lines, my mind is pushing me to stop. Getting me reasons to actually quit, do something more pleasant, eat, get a candy, watch an episode of something, finish my book, anything but writing this… Just go back into my shell.
So why am I doing it? Because I want to prove myself I can? That will be peachy isn’t it? Little introvert trying to prove himself he is capable of expression into the world, reach at long last the realms of the society he’s been trying to be a part of for so many years, can he make it? Will he succeed in his wonderful lovely race for the truth??… (it’s so wet and beautiful, I am actually shivering, sadly I have to break the show as it is time for the advertisements)…
Back to reality: Truth is I know I can do it, I already do know myself extremely well. (Something being an introvert gives you is plenty of opportunities to reflect upon yourself.) So I have nothing to prove to myself, and even less to society. In fact, this site is simply: My ultimate tool!
Don’t you see? Well It’s obvious: “Look, I am so sensible, naked in front of all those strangers, all diminished, vulnerable…” And yet I so don’t care! (can’t touch me) Yes, this is gonna be my ultimate defence mechanism!
If you haven’t done so already, I encourage you to read the Disclaimer section. Never forget that I am lacking the most basic emotions most of you are feeling every day. So my endeavour with that site might bring me “too far” (for your point of view) and hurt some people. And I can’t really apologize for that either, since I honestly don’t care and don’t see the point of lying about it.
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